My sis took me to chemo today. Sorry no pics taken.
Good news - My platelets count went to38 last week and to 39 this week. Red blood count (RBC), hemoglobin, hemocrit, all went up a tiny bit last week and this again some more this week.
So I had my chemo last week and this week.
Doc says if my counts come up again next week, we're going to add another chemo drug to the regimine. Try and knock this crap out.
BAd news - My White blood count (WBC) shot throught the roof last week to 45, them went down to 29 this week (still way to hgh.). Doc is stumped and doesn't understand what is going on and what to do about it.
The breast tumor seems to to be growing again, or at the very lest not shrinking anymore. So I have a mamogram with ultrasound scheduled for the upcoming week. I'll let you know the results when I get them. Pray that me and the doc are crazy and that the tumor is actually shrinking
SIDE/PERSONAL note - I originally started this bog as a thank you to all my friends and family. I wanted it to be celebration of what friends, family, and love can do for you, and the difference they can make. I still want it to be about that.
I don't want this to be a rah rah rah - let's kick cancers butt, cheerleader site. I also don't want it to be a blah blah blah - pity me I have cancer site. But it has become clear that there are times I need to blog/type away about sad things, or sometimes about good things. I have been hesitant to post anything but the facts. But I think I need to change this up. Sometimes I need to be on the pity pot and blog away about it, and sometimes I need to be upbeat and only blog about that.
So from now on, I will blog about what is going on for me at the time. I'm sorry if you only want to hear how strong I am, and how well I am doing. That is just not always true. Somedays I'm great, somedays I'm on a crying jag. They are all me, and they are all apart of this cancer process. I can't deny either one of them.
So read if you want, and it's okay if you don't want to read about whats going on. It's true for all of us, we can only deal with what we can deal with today. True for me and also true for all of you.
I will still try and make this site about all of my friends and family. I love you all and appreciate everything you have done for me. I truly couldn't make it without you and don't know how I will ever repay any of you.
Lots of love, Heather
Heather this is an outlet for you...do what you need to do, no matter what, the job that you have right now is to survive anyway that you can...I think I speek for all the people that love you...I wish that things were easier for you , hell I pray that they are, but the fact is, its a difficult journey that you must travel. Just know you will never travel it alone...I love your friends, and they you, so anything you need or do need, just say. I do worrie when you don't write, but I understand, I think I can speek for all when I say we all understand...after all there may be a day we have to live without you, my only regret would be that I haven't done enough to help you...I don't want to be a bug...its more like a pest...I love you
ReplyDeleteHey Heather! I have been following your progress on your blog and from other nurses on the unit. I can't even imagine what you are going through, but I am glad to see that you are finding an outlet through your blog. While the facts are good to know, I want to know how YOU are doing/feeling/coping/etc. So write away, sister! ((HUGS to you))
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